To Renounce Absoluteness

Upon burning all my bridges,
To the gloomiest blue I fell.
I never learned how to float,
Carrying the weight of shame.

Gasping for air as I could.
Despaired, my  muscle, gave up.
And submerged in the absolute,
Pain would be over at last.

Grudging at the ashy bridges,
With my last bit of strength,
Unable to redeem my soul,
Into absoluteness I caved.

I sank, and sank ever deeper.
Busy the whale road with death.
I only gave up on my ego
As I took my final breath.

A coast to rest in plain sight
Re-ignited my inner fire.
Water horses handed me over.
To the driest land of all trials.

To the shore I arrived but intact,
With the void that follows a fight.
It did not matter how fast I swam,
For my troubles knew how to dive.

And now, as I gear up my navels,
To the blue, luring sea I depart.
Having redeemed and repented,
Yet the mermaids claim me back.